God is Sovereign, Jesus is Enough
As the holiday season seem to be flying by faster than previous years, I’ve found myself feelings restless, thinking about what my life has looked like over the past 5 years. The things that made me laugh, made me cry, broke my heart, and made me stronger. Through it all I’ve realized I really have no idea who I am and where I am going. I am not a planner by any means and so not having any direction sometimes doesn’t really seem to bother me. The past couple weeks as I realize graduation is just around the corner and I am presented once again with the question of what my future will look like, I look back at the girl that I thought I was before this all began. I thought I was this fearless and strong woman that would never let anyone get in her way. I found out the hard way that I wasn’t made of steel and could be easily broken. As I figured out how to pick up the pieces of the girl from my past and glue her back together as the woman of my future I struggle to find a balance. I remember being in high school reading a devotional that changed my life just with a few simple words, “God is sovereign, Jesus is enough.” I remember reading these words wanting to 100% believe in them. I wanted to remember them and live those words so much I wrote them (in puff paint..remember I was in high school!) on my closet door. Years later those walls have been painted over and I don’t even look in that room anymore, I wonder where that passion went, can it be erased, painted over and forgotten? Why does my happiness, future, love, and devotion not reside in the only one that truly wants it all? These desires have always been something I sought after in people and every time they fail me, but it’s not their fault, it’s mine for raising the bar so high some don’t even bother trying to go near it. So on nights like tonight, where I lay in bed with my scattered thoughts keeping me awake, I keep hearing the phrase, “God is sovereign, Jesus is enough” and wonder is it me thinking this or God telling me, He is in control, rest easy, Jesus is everything I need.
“Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have
put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift
up my soul.”
— Psalm 143:8
